Here’s honesty. When you’re 25 and younger they say inexperienced to shut you up. When your 25 and older they say past your prime to shut you up. The whole point is for you to feel either too young or too old or too inexperienced or too weary from experience. Old dogs do learn new tricks. Young rattlesnakes do have better venom. The unskilled lack confidence. The skilled get lazy. Everyone has a hiccup. You want to be something, carve out a space big enough to sit in and get to it.
I sometimes think that people’s hearts are like deep wells. Nobody knows what’s at the bottom. All you can do is imagine by what comes floating to the surface every once in a while.
Please don’t break me I finally put the pieces back together
Try to numb the pain
With alcohol and pills
But it won’t repair your trust
You can’t stand on two fucking feet
With a substance as a crutch
We are sitting on your bed, there is distance between us and the silence is suffocating me. I am holding my knees to my chest. My body is shaking; you are quiet. I ask you if you still love me, and you tell me that you are not sure that you ever did.